petits réticules

christine presents: miniscule, insignificant bits of her life, each wrapped up in its own ornate little container.

hard act to follow

Since last night, I have realized that I should never talk about my feelings through this medium; while I do not doubt my gift of expression, it does not translate to this kind of writing, and comes out much better in speech or in written letters. In addition, my expression on the subject of literature is good, but wholly lost on my followers, I feel, since my reading material and cross references are generally considered obscure. For these reasons, I am taking a break from blogging for a while.

The general malaise that I feel while using the Internet and sitting in front of a computer also contribute to this decision. Perhaps the most important and relevant reason, though, is that my life lacks the structure and excitement that it held in Italy; or rather, I am still excited by my life, but it makes for poor reading material for others. Instead of marveling at architecture as I walk down the street, instead of seeing pieces by Michelangelo on a regular basis, I am living in suburbia, driving a car past endless shopping centers that all offer the same inanities and groceries.

Basically, I feel out of sorts at this particular time in my life. A lot of things are happening to me; a lot that I wish to happen still seems far on the horizon. Writing to what seems an imaginary audience is much too much to be asked of me right now.

(Source: nowserving, via jesuisperdu)

Romare Bearden-Spring Way
Overall, I did not like this artist’s work, but I thought this was a wonderful collage (collages are close to my heart right now because I have been making a lot of them myself, though they do not in the slightest look like this).

Romare Bearden-Spring Way

Overall, I did not like this artist’s work, but I thought this was a wonderful collage (collages are close to my heart right now because I have been making a lot of them myself, though they do not in the slightest look like this).

Franz Kline-Untitled

Franz Kline-Untitled

Ilya Bolotowsky-Red Tondo

Ilya Bolotowsky-Red Tondo

Ilya Bolotowsky

Ilya Bolotowsky

Franz Kline-Blueberry Eyes

Franz Kline-Blueberry Eyes

mornings white as diamonds

Well, it’s been another wonderful week in Winston-Salem! The offerings this week were just as promising as those of the previous week, and they certainly delivered. I got to spend some time with my very best friend, and although that time was all too brief, I think I felt my heart grow five times its size just from being in her presence. Here’s to hoping I can make it up to New York sooner rather than later!

An amazing band from Raleigh called Whatever Brains graced Elliot’s Revue with their presence on Thursday, and I was thrilled to see them; I had only seen them once before, some years ago at Chapel Hill’s Nightlight, where I obtained a great cassette. Sadly, no songs from the cassette were played, but their set was really good, so no complaints here. The opening band was from London and were called Chapter 24; I loved their performance and need to look into some of their recordings (it remains to be seen if I will actually do this, since being in front of a computer screen kind of freaks me out now, but really, they were awesome, so maybe you should check them out!).

Before that show, though, I had been at the Reynolda House, a historic house/museum which currently has an exhibit on loan from the Smithsonian museum entitled “Modern Masters.” I had heard that the show was pretty weak, and for the most part I have to agree. It was only about forty-five paintings, and overall, my feelings for them were pretty meh; but, there were some exceptions that really made it worth the money I paid to see it, and these pieces were truly captivating. I was writing some of my favorite pieces down in my little notebook, just as I have always done in museums across Europe and the States, when some security lady came and told me that no ink pens are allowed in the gallery. Stupid, but okay, I put my pen away, but this lady keeps on badgering me and saying, “Well, we get a lot of students, so you can understand why…” and actually I had no idea what the fuck she was talking about but at this point I just wanted to get away; it was at this point that I ran into a friend of my parents who told me that I should go home and put a brush through my hair. Let’s be real, people: I was in a somewhat altered state at this gallery; what better way is there to see modern art?? People just can’t say things like that to me, or act that way towards me; it freaks me out! I guess that’s old people for you.

Anyway, I think my favorite artist discovered through this exhibit was Ilya Bolotowsky (are you surprised that it was a Russian?…neither am I). By the time I had reached his three pieces, I had been chastised by the gallery attendant and so I couldn’t write down the names of the pieces, but don’t fear, I found one on the internet (sans title, unfortunately) and another that rather resembles one of the ones in the gallery. So that’s that for the gallery, images to follow shortly.

Last night was the big Halloween party that all my friends went to and which I decided to skip because I didn’t have a costume put together and just didn’t really feel like it. If listening to Fever Ray and reading Flannery O’Connor isn’t spooky and fun enough for you guys then I don’t know what is!

Speaking of reading, I am on my third book this week. Let’s start at the beginning, with Ilf & Petrov’s The Twelve Chairs, some Soviet-era literature that is actually humorous! Not quite so funny as Bulgakov’s masterpiece The Master and Margarita, and lacking in the supernatural element, but it still had me laughing out loud frequently in public, and it had that Russian flair that I just can’t get enough of. Recommended. Next was O’Connor’s Wise Blood, her first novel, and a kind of amalgamation of several of her short stories. I have previously read all of her short stories, so I felt a kind of familiarity for the characters and many of the plot points, but the development of those stories into a novel gave an entirely different feel to the prose. Questions of faith and belief in Protestantism are not usually things that interest me, especially in literature, but O’Connor captures a sinister element in them and weaves a story of the grotesque, the bizarre, and ultimately, the believable. Though she has a stronger grip on realism, some of her characters are just as bizarre as those of Gogol’s. So now I’m over halfway done with her second novel, The Violent Bear it Away, which began at a point of derivation from one of her stories, but has since veered into previously unknown territory, and I am thrilling to read it. Will most likely finish it today. Speaking of which, I need to get away from this computer as quickly as I can.

nobody lingers like your hand on my heart

You guys, this was kind of a triumphant weekend in Winston-Salem. Not even kind of—totally. On Friday evening, a new gallery opened downtown, with the first exhibition curated by my friend Tim; the premise behind the show was that Tim had collected all of these pieces of art found in thrift stores, and had local artists recreate the pieces. Every single piece was great, and some of them were truly inspiring, making me long to hang them on my own walls and have the wondrous benefit of gazing at them each and every day. I wish I had photos to share. And the new gallery is fantastic, and there was wine and cheese and all my friends were there. It was the kind of night that just came together beautifully, and it was followed by further drinking at the bar and a little bit of reckless raucousness; my next day at work was divided into two easily identifiable segments: the first, a giddiness that most likely stemmed from still being tipsy; the second, a loopiness that was a sure sign of the first phase being over.

What with my slight delirium, I kept it quiet last night and watched Daisies, that Czech new wave, feminist film I’m always talking about…and which I watched twice this week…

And now it’s Sunday and I need to get a move on on my Halloween costume. Mostly, though, I need to gear up and get ready for tomorrow, when my most beautiful Kat will return home to me!!! Time to get crazy and colorful and ecstatic! Also on the agenda for today: begin a new book, always an exciting prospect. Time to get started on these things! Happy Sunday everyone, hope you had as nice a weekend as I did!

found love in a graveyard

It’s fall! My nails are a nice, shiny black in complement to the weather, which is nice and cool. Well, except for the days where it’s still really warm and I still put the top down on the convertible—but it’s cold at night! And it’s hard to resent the comfort and style of the convertible; in fact, it’s better when I can put the top down, since my driver’s window won’t roll up at all right now—not fun when I’m driving home late at night from all those boring things I do in the evenings. Enough about the car, though—it’ll get fixed…eventually….

In the past week or so, I’ve had a few visitors stop by Winston-Salem on their way to or from Asheville, which has been wonderful. If you are not one of these people, then you should be; seriously, people, come hang out with me. Disregard what I just said in that previous paragraph, this town is really fun and I really miss my friends who live elsewhere. Got to see my friend Matt, who lamented over the fact that he isn’t playing music anymore, but added, optimistically, that it left him much more time to go shopping. Also got to see Katie, yesterday in fact, and we got ice cream and beer, which is a pretty foolproof combination. Though these visits were brief, they did a lot to warm my heart. And made me desperate to drive up to Asheville. Maybe soon.

Almost finished with The Tin Drum. Decided to be a giraffe for Halloween. Finally downloaded a couple new albums that I haven’t yet heard, because I am not cool anymore. If something came out this year that you think I would like, please tell me about it! I don’t have a computer anymore, I’m not connected to the blogosphere, oh my god I only exist in real life, how can I know what are the cool new things??!

the thing is that this rather resembles my handwriting

the thing is that this rather resembles my handwriting

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